I know I changed real much after I started my college life. I mean, I changed to become jealousy or somehow talk behind ones, even he or she closed to me. I don't know why this bad habit appear, it's like I hate this fuck but it do stay in my life. I didn't treat my bestie in Seremban like that but college's. I don't know how to face those friends who always say things different with their thoughts. They do care you, but they say somethings out like they don't give a fuck. Okay ya I don't really adapt it at first so I kept mumbling to other friends to show that how much I hate this attitude. But after I realize they are not mean it, I can't even keep back what I mumbled to those friends. This really made me frustrated. So now, I think I should back to the times I don't speak much. I know maybe I'm just can't really endure it and burst out once but I started to regret the next day. I knew it happened once in form 2 which I really don't know how to keep her back but I wish I can adapt her attitude again. I know she cares me. I know it. I know it.